A few months ago a normal day for me was one where I executed my morning routine: get up, brush teeth, shower, make and have breakfast, check my emails and maybe blog. After blogging I would sit down, relax, breathe deeply and start my daily writing assignments. I would start with a gratitude list. Real things I am grateful for, not things I would like to be grateful for. This was the best way to set myself into a happy mode where I could see how many blessings were in my life and I would also write about the previous day. By putting my thoughts and feelings in black and white I was able to clean the glass through which I see life. Next on my schedule would be tackling things in my "to do" list. Making jewelry was always an active part of my day, and it was just relaxing to create and feel creative.
Now, I still do my morning routine, but I am not making that much jewelry, I have to struggle to get things done. Just shopping for groceries leaves me quite tired and I need to rest more. I still want to squeeze in these new normal days all the things I used to do, but I have to accept that I have to rest more and take it down a notch.
Acceptance and flexibility seem to be the issues I have been struggling with in silence and without awareness. I am glad to have seen this, because they now have lost all their power and I have realized that I need to do less and rest more. I also know it is temporary, but then again, my life will be different in a couple of months. I am looking forward to all these changes.
I am the queen of "To Do" lists. Do you struggle with time? Do you accomplish too much or too little in a day? Do you feel you need more hours in a day?
I try to remember myself that I have to live every moment and not be always in a hurry. Just calm down, and enjoy life. It's not a race against time, and if I feel I need more time is because I am squeezing to many things into a day and maybe taking on more than I should.
You DO have reason to be very tired right now!
ReplyDeleteI think you've written well about an ongoing circular truth: life is comprised of changes and challenges measured against the structure of 'time' and the grid of 'accomplishment'.
Another excellent point you captured is that the quality of life depends so very much on finding balance between time/accomplishment/contentment. What is accomplished in a day matters less than being content (as content as possible)when the sun sets. Not trying - or worrying over- 'doing it all' is key to happiness (and sanity lol).
Always and ever will days be bordered by to-do lists. Inevitably challenges and changes, joyous and difficult, will ask for attention and time. Must-do & want-to-do never seem to learn to play nicely together, lol
I struggle with 'time' too :-) Endlessly.
So I remind myself often that if I were to tally in two lists 'contentement' and 'accomplishment' I'd want the contentment list to be the longest .....
Faye
Oh yes, I get tired! I am in a slump right now creatively. Or maybe I am just in a fallow season, priming the soil for the time when my creativity will take root and flourish. That happens to me after periods of intense concentration on creative endeavors. And it is my 9p-midnight or later job doing the jewelry and the orders etc. So yes, I am tired.
ReplyDeleteI am glad to know I am not the only queen of to dos! Stickie notes are my favorite things.
Thanks for sharing a bit of your story Yelisa.
Enjoy the day!
Erin
P.S. In answer to your question on my blog about using the questions I posed...yes. I am quite happy to have inspired you. (And you should turn on your email in your blogger profile... it took me awhile to figure out who was contacting me and I would have replied to you directly!)